Globetrotting Experiences:

How Making a Trip Around The World Will Change You

Though maybe not in the way you might expect

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My hunger for travelling and even moving to a faraway country became almost unbearable.

I spent my teenage years dreaming about travelling. My friends seemed to travel so much. My hunger for travelling and even moving to a faraway country became almost unbearable. I couldn’t wait to grow up and get started! And, you guessed right, that’s exactly what I did.

I guess we felt so much stuck in life, we really expected this trip to turn everything, and I mean everything, around.

When I think back, it’s hard to say what we were really expecting from this trip. It took almost 2 years to save money and prepare for such a huge project. After all, we were planning to be on the road for a year. But to sum it up, I guess we felt so much stuck in life, we really expected this trip to turn everything, and I mean everything, around. Of course, the aspect of travelling was our focus while we were planning and getting ready. We wanted to travel, see different cultures, taste different food — travelling was simply our passion. But nonetheless, this trip seemed to be the ultimate chance to see and feel new environments, to explore new possibilities — and find new happiness. We were so excited to finally leave Vienna, meet new people and get away from our boring jobs and boring lives.

But when dreams come true, they make room for new thoughts.

But when dreams come true, they make room for new thoughts. And so the sobriety of the world caught up with us. Distance is a great thing, faraway countries even greater, but through the veil of adventure and hope for a brighter future, we could not deny that we had left some serious bagagge back at home. I started asking myself why I kept running away from home? Why did we have to live on another continent? What career path should I take, should we take? Which jobs would guarantee enough income and the freedom to travel once we moved abroad? Which careers would work out best abroad? Would the authorites accept our Austrian degrees? Where should we move? Should we stay in our little apartment in Vienna or rent another space once we came back? How should Mike and I handle his parents in the future (they didn’t like me at all)? Questions were piling up. The desperation was real for both of us. We were both at a point in our lives where we wanted answers. And the uncertainty was eating away at us. We had expected this trip to deliver final answers but travelling can only open up your mind to possibilities. It can never solve a problem for you nor can it form your future or make decisions for you. And that was maybe my most painful lesson:

My desperation culminated with me standing in New York crying and telling Mike that I didn’t want to go back home at all. Because at home you had to make the right decisions and I felt completely paralized, unable to think about decisions, let alone make them.

By the end of our trip, I pressured myself really hard into thinking that I had to have all answers by the time we would return home. I was 34 and I felt like time was running out. I had to have answers and our damn journey didn’t give me any! I was supposed to go on that trip, see the world and come back home, fully transformed! But I wasn’t feeling transformed. I felt desperate and a little depressed. It felt like I was waiting for some kind of Heureka moment. But it never came. My desperation culminated with me standing in New York crying and telling Mike that I didn’t want to go back home (NYC was our last station before heading back to Vienna). Because at home you had to make the right decisions and I felt completely paralized, unable to think about decisions, let alone make them. And for the first time ever, he didn’t have an answer either.

Without us even realizing it, our journey had not ended yet. Instead it continued on the inside. The thoughts were travelling now.

However, something had changed. We had changed. Our attitudes had changed. Without us even realizing it, our journey had not ended yet. Instead it continued on the inside. The thoughts were travelling now. Millions of possibilities opened up before us.

But when you take a chance and finally end up sitting in the jungle of Samoa, more than 16000 km away from home, only then you start realizing that it is you that has to change. Not your environment.

Looking back, I can’t help but notice that it was travelling around the world that confronted me with my real problems — impatience, uncertainty and crisis. I knew that something had to change, but I didn’t know how, when, where, …. There were too many questions and perhaps too little courage to take a new perspective. I felt trapped in my own life. But when you take a chance and finally end up sitting in the jungle of Samoa, more than 16000 km away from home, only then you start realizing that it is you that has to change. Not your environment. Not the city you live in. Not the people around you. But you yourself have to change. You yourself have to make that journey! And that’s where we are, still on our journey.

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Sam Jones

Sam Jones

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Travelling, teaching, freelancing, reading, creating. I do life with passion. Without passion we are nothing.